Bleeding in the Snow

I've tried and tried but I can't find a comfort for the pain I've tried to use the chemicals to wash it all away Round and round when I come down and everything's the same I can't defeat the cycle, I can't defeat the shame I've become the only one who tears apart my dreams Can't control the fear, I'll have to flee the scene Imitate a damaged world, never feel the pain Blow myself away When will I let go of bleeding in the snow? Will I let go? It's all I've ever known I'm terrified I'll never be who I'm meant to be Who I'm meant to be Kill myself once again just 'cause I'm afraid Why am I living a lie, a charade? Again I feel the grief inside Never ending suicide Why am I alive? When will I let go of bleeding in the snow? Will I let go? It's all I've ever known I'm terrified I'll never be who I'm meant to be Who I'm meant to be I convince myself I'm strong 'Til the feelings overwhelm I lie to my knees Admitting I am weak Oh god, please set me free somehow When will I let go of bleeding in the snow? Will I let go? It's all I've ever known I'm terrified I'll never be who I'm meant to be Who I'm meant to be To be Who I'm meant to be To be