I Hate Myself

Listen close I just don't want you to go You just have to understand that you're toxic and we're getting old for this I don't wanna fight I just want us to be fine I'm not committing suicide but that's exactly why I try To end my life, now I wanna say goodbye I am tired of your love, it feels like I had enough And that's all I wanna say right now I have nothing but regret in my life And now I think it is my time to go I'm holding the blade likes it's your fucking hand I'm dying inside I'm bleeding from the side I wanna cry, I tell myself that I am fine Even though I wanna die as I look up the sky I'm committing suicide it's not a homicide I'm tired of this fucking life I joke around a little too much about it but you know that is fine No one ever catches on, take my breath in just a yawn I wanna see if life goes on after death You wanna know why I wanna end it and how? But that's all I wanna say right now I have nothing but regret in my life And now it is my time to go I'm feeling the pain cuz it won't go away I'm slitting my wrist every other day Give me another reason why I should stay And give me a better reason why I shouldn't complain about myself I live in this fucking hell Nothing I do has a better ending then my fucking past People think I'm doing well and that's fine I'm alive I can't lie even though I wanna die You push me away when I want to keep you safe I'm feeling the pain when I want to cut my vein But that's all I wanna say right now I have nothing but regret in my life And now I think it is my time to go Listen close I just don't want you to go You just have to understand that you're toxic and we're getting old for this I don't wanna fight I just want us to be fine I'm not committing suicide but that's exactly why I try To end my life, now I wanna say goodbye I am tired of your love it feels like I had enough And that's all I wanna say right now I have nothing but regret in my life And now I think it is my time to go