This Isn't Heaven, It Must Be Hell

I'm so tired Living a lie I'm weak, I need to leave this lonely life I'm so fed up of lonely nights I sleep away my days to pass the time Help me believe I'm something more Incapable, at least I'm still trying You don't know what it's like to live alone, mm Keep tryna climb over mountains While I'm so locked up in the silence Give me one good reason I shouldn't go Don't wait for me, I'm frozen Right between my burdens Can't save me from myself There's no way that I deserve this Fail to see my purpose This isn't Heaven, it must be Hell I'm letting go off what I'm waiting for I know I'm worth it, but I feel so worthless And it's not so worth it, no I'm losing hope I'm out of control The pain that's inside keeps me so locked inside Not a fan of my pride, I know Help me believe I'm something more Than late nights staying up 'til the morning You don't know what it's like to be alone Keep tryna climb over mountains While I can't get up off my mattress Give me one good reason I shouldn't go-oh-oh So misguided, got me falling to my knees (falling to my knees) Empty practice I could never hope to preach (never hope to preach) Hollow words don't ever seem to bring me peace My faith was made fragile by vacant response That life they promised me was a lie I fell and burned, they told me I'd fly Waist deep in frigid water, I drown I inhale to drift further down to my end Don't wait for me, I'm frozen Right between my burdens Can't save me from myself There's no way that I deserve this I fail to see my purpose This isn't Heaven, it must be Hell