Curious

Imagine if life was a game? Imagine if all this is fake? Imagine if everything ended And we go to heaven And meet all the greats? Imagine if there was no Drake? Imagine if there was no Wayne? Would rappers be garbage? Would people be rapping? Will everyone still sound the same? Man, nobody knows it All of a sudden I'm overthinking Sound like I'm trippin' Can't tell the states Feel like I'm goin' Lindsay Taste of fluoride in this water I'm drinkin' I don't know why I don't make friends in this business Seem like they all wanna win but not with me Went to a party in hopes for some kisses Girl and their friends and they looking delicious I came out to 'em There was four of 'em There was one of me I liked all of 'em They liked none of me All this bubblin' got me stumblin' Talked more with the one girl with the pretty fit 'Cause I saw through her and the wall she built She actin' all that her friends all wack I asked why she being cold to me And she said she "don't like guys like me" Oh, you mean smart and funny and has a big dick And doesn't have to fake shit just to fit in Maybe when I meant to be acquaintin' 5'9", confidence through the roof Not to mention I'm 19 so are you We both still got lips let's put it to use And we smashed that night, She gave me the flu, ayy (That shit was not worth it) I got sick and sad, man, you gave me the blues I started thinkin' 'bout life, all the shit I've been through At fourteen when I didn't have friends at school Or when I thought nachos was Italian food When I thought smoking cigarettes would make me cool All the nights that I spent in my room I guess we can always improve I miss my family, miss my home Wish I could visit a little more The journey's 24 hours flight too long I only get to see 'em on my phone Time does fly I went from good ones to seeing tears in my mom's eyes I don't blame her though She used to feed me, now I live alone Doing things she don't know about But I'm always a angel (always a angel) And I wonder what my mom was thinkin' When she realised that her son is a little too famous A little too anxious Went from having no friends now he's singing on stages I'm her youngest son She's just hoping that I know what to do with my paper When I think about it, shit I don't know how I could live with that And I just bought some shit at the grocery Some coconut water and some frozen meat Sometimes I still miss the nicotine I've been nervous and vomiting Doing shows don't even sound fun to me Told the crowd that I have food poisoning Had a trash can sided at the stage for me Man, I don't know what happened to me But I think I'm right where I'm supposed to be I think it's meant to be, I mean, I think I'm meant to be Put a kid with a dream in a room full of books He gon' read even though none of it's understood (ayy) Shout out to the ones doing things Everyone was afraid or unable to do, man The world needs more of you, the world needs more like you And I heard that the simplest choice that you choose Ain't simple, it's actually huge And the older I get and the more that I shoot Don't believe in the hate just believe in the truth I don't spend the bread I just know how to chase it If the difference is then here I make it No I do not live for validation Fuck your comments and your mama's basement Always rich cause that's what my name is Greatest days are on a daily basis RZA's fuckin' with me, man I made it If I could man I would never change shit