hate that you can tell

Saw you at a party and you asked me how I've been

I said "just fine"

But I know that you know

I lied

Always been too honest, so I'm holding it all in

Just for tonight--

Let's pretend, let's pretend

That I'm alright

Oh, you know me better than I even know myself

But tonight I came here hoping I could be somebody else

I hate that I'm an open book

Because I don't want you to read me

And I try to play it cool

I hate that you don't make it easy

Wish that I could be the girl who's moved on--

Who's making you jealous right now

But I miss you

And I hate that you can tell

Now we're making small talk

And you tell me 'bout your mom's home renovation (what?)

Guess you moved out of the basement (okay)

Wanna ask you where you're staying

But I don't, and I won't (huh!)

'Cause I'm too proud to admit the fact

That I want you back

I fuckin' hate that

I'm an open book (I'm an open book)

Because I don't want you to read me (no I don't want)

And I try to play it cool

I hate that you don't make it easy

Wish that I could be the girl who's moved on--

Who's making you jealous right now

But I miss you (I miss you)

And I hate that you can tell (that you can tell)

I hate that you can

See right through my bullshit

When I say how good it's going

You're so so casually indulging

My internalized emotions

Thought I felt good when I walked in

(When I walked in)

Now I'm self conscious second-guessing

(Got me second-guessing)

Every single thing I've said

You're living in my head

And I fucking hate that

I'm an open book

Because I don't want you to read me

And I try to play it cool

I hate that you don't make it easy

(Oh no-no-no)

Wish that I could be the girl who's moved on--

Who's making you jealous right now

(Uh! I miss you)

But I miss you

(Oh! You can always tell)

And I hate that you can tell

(Oh no-no-no-no)

But I miss you

And I hate that you can tell