it's not your fault

I'm hard on myself

and I'm way too good at making enemies

I don't ask for help

and I never see what's right in front of me

mm, and I know

you don't want to let me go

mm, and you know

that I've tried

I'm on fire but it's not your fault

that I'm sick and tired of waking up

the same old habits that I can't break

are staring at me and I don't know what to say

I'm not feeling well

so I'll stay at home and wait until next year

and no one can tell

cause I build up walls and smile from ear to ear

mm, but you know

I don't want to lose control

because I'm terrified

I'm on fire but it's not your fault

that I'm sick and tired of waking up

the same old habits that I can't break

are staring at me and I'm not okay

I'm in love but it's not enough

if the masquerade isn't coming off

I know I promised but I can't take it anymore

and I don't know what to say

but I hope you'll be okay