The One Who Did It First

I don't wanna be friends at all

You won't be here when I fall

I'm just gettin' stoned

Old me would be stoked

I don't fall in love like I did all those years ago

Jaded, she's a gem, but she's no lil' ghost, I'm all outta hope

But you already know that about me

All these memories surround me

I'm passionate, but baby doll

I learned to numb, now I don't feel at all

I don't wanna be friends at all

You won't be here when I fall

Let me talk about my life

While I avoid all conversations

I can't write like back in '21 with all those aspirations

I met every single hero, one had even helped me tour

I had never felt the love that I had felt from friends before

But success and doin' well are not synonymous, it's true

I don't ever feel myself unless I'm sittin' close to you

Unless I'm sittin' next to her, the girl that broke my heart

The one who did it first