Saved Me

Imma man

Learn to shrug it off

Going to the light

Stay away from the dark

5 yrs of hell was enough to pull my family apart

Got me Smokin n drinking alcohol

Showin emotions wasn't the way I was taught

Matter in fact I got addicted to drinking n Smokin pot

Stayed away from sharing my thoughts

Growin in my addiction is where I became lost

Didn't even wanna pray to God

Acted like I was a juggernaut

All I wanted was to feel a buzz

Isn't that was every addict does

Chooses addiction over love

Chooses the wrong ones to give the trust

Learns how to self-destruct

Feed the demon inside

Like damn who am I

All the demons in my mind

Always be on cloud nine

Took a year to see the sign

See my mental health decline

Was only twenty four

Didn't know who to call for

Didn't know who to ask for

Smokin to hide the hurtin

Smokin more n more

Drinkin more n more

Didn't know how to close the addiction door

Self destruction happening within

Tryin to hold it in

Look at my reflection it's time to change

Maybe I'm the person I should blame

Im tired of feeling insane

Tired of feeling mentally drained

Wondering if I should drink or change

Wondering if I should smoke or make the change

Realized sobriety might be the way

In order to feel okay

Felt my mind going insane

Lost In my own inner demon

Finally found myself defeated

Had nothing left

Learned how to pick up my broken pieces

Had to give myself to Jesus

In order To get away from my weakness

In order to get away from this demon