Because I got distracted every time you started talking to me

I ain't take it serious, I'm focused on some other shit

I just took your words and bunched it up and then abolished it

I just want acknowledgement, all the time that I wasted

I'm just trying to be great, baby I'm trying to get payments

But I was trying too hard for your approval

But I don't know what to do, would it be the same if I was removed?

Listen, fucked up so many times, I've told so many lies

I know you fucked up but you got to see it through my eyes

I know it fucking hurts, I know I get up on your nerves

I know it don't look like it, but I'm trying to make it work

Trying to get my mom a purse, trying to give my brother toys

I rap my heart out every day, but all you hear is noise

But I don't even blame you, I don't be with the fam

Damage already done, I got the blood up in my hands

I ain't talk to you like in a minute

I apologize, I've been busy with the digits

Did it for the fam, but I left them all in bridges

I try harder, but I know I'm not the son you always wanted

I don't know what happened, used to be so happy, now I wonder why

I thought that it was fucked up why I'm still alive

I get sad as soon as I take off that damn disguise

Would it really matter if I went up to the skies?

I feel like a failure, at least up in my eyes

Try to talk about this shit, but I'm too tongue-tied

Every time I got a problem, I just run and hide, like a fucking child

If you're being real, I could really change

I promise I'm done lying to your face

I really tried my hardest, it's just not fucking showing

Cause when I shine, I know that you gon' fucking notice