Trying to figure out what happened 3 years ago why I’m like this now. It was not your fault need to stop blaming others for mistakes I’ve made in the past. It’s okay, I’m the only person I should blame in my own hell. The voices still screaming, as my blood stands still. Tournament, agony embracing have no goals I’m further chasing. I left myself astray. Wasted time through wasted years cut all my ties and disappeared. What did I accomplish? I'm my own demon. I am my own judge and executioner. What is the meaning beyond this existence? Can somebody tell me. Death is the only thing promised in life, so why am I still breathing? Choking on thin air as putrid humans fill the skies with smoke, can’t escape it must embrace it life is nothing but a joke. Help is just a word you say when your about to give it up, suicides the action when you finally have had enough. HAD ENOUGH.

This is it, I’m done, I’ve lived long enough to see that myself and no one else is gonna change. So what’s the fucking point of staying here if the same shits just gonna repeat itself every god damn day. I've been waiting for years and now the time has finally come to end it all. Lifeless hanging from a noose in the bathroom, I see my soul leave my being I’ve never been so at peace. No Pulse, No Pain, Silence consuming me. No Pulse, No Pain, Silence consuming me. No Pulse, No Pain, The silence has finally consumed me.