Healing my Inner child, got me wild these days, I been struggling

As of recent, I realized through hustling

I Work to ignore pain, feeling feelings of suffering

Can’t shake what’s inside, try, it’s still hovering

Healing takes effort and ease, it ain’t no muscling

Scared to change, u stay the same, say fuck it then

Funny how the people who heal u, usually recovering

I get a beat, let it release, my soul coloring

How u know what to do, but don’t know it for u

Fuck pride, poverty is emotional too

Introverted, never lonely, that’s something they don’t see

By myself, mean just that, I’m right by me

Far as pain, got plenty to spare

Fuck killing, my purpose, to keep living is my only affair

You being dead is my only despair

So when I’m broken, and Im looking for ur shoulder just show me u there, please

Im on da block, 3 am, tape on da old grip

Few robbers and fiens be out, cuz they dope sick

I was young when I sit and recall it

Went from timid and pure, to seeing danger and start absorb it

Shot em, they looking, da dumbest shit **** applaud it

It followed my name, **** start paying me for it

Never wanted hood fame, don’t drink , never blunted

Fuck being known, I be moving round like I’m wanted

A street **** Grammy is stacking a couple hunnit

Money, it be abundant, but the plummet it come wit

Feds came for dot, they threw his queen on her stomach

My cousin caught a L on 30, he trying to stomp it

Picture the rest of ur days alive in a tomb

Forgotten, at ur lowest, you getting the broom

We at a visit, guards barking that they ending it soon

His daughter screaming , carrying her out the visiting room , I said

Man listen, most gangstas you ever seen was just scarred ****

**** will just say this me fuck it

We won't grow ,where we don't go

We won't grow, where we don't go

We don't grow, where we won't show

The shit we grew up in was not normal, the shit we seen the death we experienced

All we did was figure out a way to cope, and then become that

Fuck all that, unpack that shit slowly

If not you'll never know who you really is

And it'll be everybody else fault you respond and react certain ways

And cant deal with this and that, fuck all dat