Eventually

I walk through life with my heart on my sleeve But y'all women just rip it apart then leave Don't let 'em tell you different, the shit is a game Her loss but my bad, I didn't know we were playing Don't ask why when you see the censored me Instead of the James that remains in your memory He's no longer like that, and never will be Cuz honesty always gets me fucked up eventually Mon cheri, when I see you I hear Stevie Wonderful feelings erupt and seize me I'm trying my best to control 'em, believe me They came on so speedy it's almost creepy Back when I was young I talked to women deeply Where you see yourself at 60? what you wanna be? Then around 16 the conversation turned sexual Since then, been thinking with the head on my genitals But here we are, ma, wishing upon a star Delving into ourselves, coming out with something raw And I reach so far, now it's a matter of the heart I kissed your stretchmarks, let you caress my scars Now the focus switch from sexual to chemical Attraction, passion, something everlasting Feelings that I had tucked away for so long Feelings that I thought were just about dead and gone If you're feeling the same way, you ain't letting on But then actions speak louder, no card, no flowers But my phone stays ringing, still, I'm a doubter At least once an hour's like I'm thinking about you Instinct in this predicament's to let you in But conditioning in feminine ways tells me different A woman is a devilish maze and I'm an instrument Made to be played, so I watch what I say Don't give up too much, gotta walk that fine line Between the loving touch and not giving too strong a sign Cuz yall ladies been fucked, wined, dined and left behind Screwed over blind until it's like you lost yall minds And I'm sure I've been that punk more than once, fine But with you I'm sincere, because you're one of a kind But lines like that probably come a dozen a dime And after all, who knows, you might be duping me So I keep my feelings tucked like a nine But keeping them concealed is a crime so I'm calling time Can't name the occasions I came in, guns blazing Trying to speed it up when I should have been patient Point taken, now I know to go slow But practicing what I preach is a different situation But I'm gonna try... but I shouldn't have to try... But I... I guess what I'm saying is I walk through life with my heart on my sleeve But yall women just rip it apart then leave Don't let 'em tell you different, the shit is a game Her loss but my bad, I didn't know we were playing Don't ask why when you see me blowing in the breeze The head games'll never get the better of me I've always been like that and always will be Cuz honesty will bring me my love eventually.