To Live a Life

I wrote you a letter

To make myself feel better

To redeem some part of me

I thought I had lost

And we were a lost cause

Long before we fell apart

'Cause, honey, I was too eager

And you were too smart

Yet I looked for you

In these empty rooms

You're a phone call away

I'm on the interstate

And I've been drinking cheap wine

Just to pass the time

I'm falling behind

And it doesn't matter

Who you are to me

Well, I'm just like my mother

We both love to run

Chase impossible things

Or unreachable dreams

Lie awake in the night

Thinking this can't be right

But there is no other way

To live a life alone

I'm alone now

Then suddenly we wake from this dream that we have made

It hits you all at once and then it slowly fades

I'm raising in to nothing now, it all falls away

I know it now for my own sake that I cannot stay