Kill the Lights

It comes, it stays wave after wave I guess you'd call it a tirade Rolls in and breaks like pins and needles, and I'm a slave To a rising waterline headspace I am numb but in disgrace So I shake and sweat and puke this out All over my bed frame Breaking pills in half to avoid the tolerance Next time I go down this path White knuckles clenching tightly to the aftermath "Put down the bottle", they say Or it's an early grave "Let yourself heal, this'll go away" But I swear my darkness lies in wait Kill the lights, crawl inside myself again Kill the lights because I can see the end Kill the lights, I'm beside myself again Kill the lights, you wanna die tonight my friend? They said we're surely set to fade Like wilting flowers on a grave So how the fuck can I save this? I can barely save myself Can't seem to save myself Never cease to pull me under My own mind tears me asunder Slip back to the depths within as the pills kick in and I drown in it Check 1, 2, OK still sane Can you feel it running through your veins? With that same old endless rain And the goddamn migraines and stomach pains And I can feel it coming over me I can tell you a few things about half empty They said we're surely set to fade Like wilting flowers on a grave So how the fuck can I save this? I can barely save myself I've got a comfort wine Do drugs from time to time I told you I felt fine You said I'd lost my shine I've got a comfort wine Do drugs from time to time I told you I felt fine You said I'd lost my shine Kill the lights, kill the lights, kill the lights You wanna die tonight? Kill the lights, kill the lights, kill the lights I'm beside myself again Kill the lights, kill the lights, kill the lights Kill the lights, you wanna die tonight my friend? Can't seem to save myself Can't seem to save myself