Ivy

Father if I Promise to chase my dreams Will you Make me clean, make me clean? If I'm drowning in my bloodstream Will you Make me clean, make me clean? I said, I said, I said I promise to chase my dreams Will you stand beside me To make ends meet? Make me clean, make me clean I said I'm drowning in my bloodstream Will you cut the IV And make me clean? Make me clean, make me clean Sometimes I scare myself With thoughts I can't control Last week my homie Told me she been feeling real low Cos some dude stays harassing her She's tryna let him go But this the typa dude who pushes it Even when she says no And now you see my strife If he so much as touches her I might just end his life And I am not the violent type Thoughts keep me up at night This the same kid who advocates For love and positivity But even in my mind I know that aint nobody feeling me Including me, I ask myself Am I fooling me? Am I being true to me? And one day when I die Will I be happy with my eulogy? God knows And I'm so focused on perfection I can't help but over do it To be honest I'm a human being Scared of being human All my haters come in second place To how I treat myself You could call my music trash But that's what I already felt One day I big up myself And next day I'm a hater Wanna blow up so bad I'm like God do me a favour Just a couple million views Maybe a grammy or two And if I meet Beyonce I would say she's overrated I'd go back to my high school And stunt because I'm famous Change my number, lose some friends Get Chris his Mercedes Benz Go to sleep inside my mansion And get my a mom house With a personal chef So she don't have to feed 5 mouths I'd wake up in the morning See my wifey and my family See I achieved all my dreams And I can finally be happy Father if I Promise to chase my dreams Will you Make me clean, make me clean? If I'm drowning in my bloodstream Will you Make me clean, make me clean? I said, I said, I said I promise to chase my dreams Will you stand beside me To make ends meet? Make me clean, make me clean I said I'm drowning in my bloodstream Will you cut the IV And make me clean? Make me clean, make me clean I'm a hypocrite At least I deal with it See, Kanye dropped a track Told my friends that it was trash But I get up in my feelings When somebody calls me wack Let me grow Because I know I know your dreams'll run away And that's why we call it a chase I hoping you would notice I been growing at some pace When I look up in the mirror I don't even see my face Tunnel vision for my goals Keep me focused on my rolls Producer, writer, rapper, engineer I'm on a mission I do everything that Russ does Don't need the recognition I'm a free man, I haven't sold my brain Not my soul, not a record Chance The Rapper in this game Aidan Fine is the name On the copyright message Only time I sell my soul If I'm selling vinyl records Yeah, but you don't see my vision I'm not here for your respect I'm just tryna be myself And let my music say the rest