Portola (Blood Clot!)

You did good $lick (Ya, ya, ya) Spaced out, always looking up (Always looking up) Sleepwalking, I don't wanna wake up, no (No) Too many pills, body won't budge (Won't budge) Too many ounces, reason why I'm slumped (Ya, ya) Rather stay numb to it, oblivious (Ya) I been up for days, delirious (Ya) Bury my emotions for periods (Ya) Deeper that I get, insidious (Ya) I'm feeling so-so broke (So-so) Damaging my lungs, chain smoke (Chain smoke-smoke) Rather stay numb when provoked (Provoked) Rather stay asleep than woke (Woke) Oh, oh, oh, here's another sad story Tryna work on me like a fucking laboratory Smoke, smoke, smoke, fucking up my respiratory I burn it up like my soul a crematory I can't feel my face, I can't feel my legs I can't feel my arms, my body out of place Is this the one that's gonna do me in? Wlll there come a day I don't have to pretend? Will there come a time my past don't haunt me? Will there come a time I wanna feel something? (Feel something) Ain't no happy endings where I'm from, no (No) The day you born, your grave's already dug, yeah (Yeah) I got therapists for day-ays and they all talk the same, aye Road to hell is paved with the best intentions Tryna dig up through my layers for what's already missing Spaced out, always looking up (Always looking up) Sleepwalking, I don't wanna wake up, no (No) Too many pills, body won't budge (Won't budge) Too many ounces, reason why I'm slumped (Reason why I'm slumped) Rather stay numb to it, oblivious I been up for days, delirious (Ya) Bury my emotions for periods (Ya) Deeper that I get, insidious (Ya) I'm feeling so, so broke Damaging my lungs, chain smoke (Chain smoke-smoke) Rather stay numb when provoked (Provoked) Rather stay asleep than woke (Woke)