My Ego Dies At The End

I think I lost something in the water I tried to swim to it I could not swim to it Drowned in a dream that should've made me stronger I tried to swim through it I could not swim through it Leave my body and the party early Cry on the train, playin' Justin Vernon Such a long walk back to thirtieth I have the dream again, I have the dream again My ego dies at the end, it's ego death I live the dream like I still don't know what it meant Who am I? I've lost the thread My ego dies at the end I lost the girl, I was over a winter I tried to cry for it I could not cry for it Sank down to search the bottom of the river I tried to die for it I could not die for it Leave my body and the water early Tried baptism but it felt like burning If I don't write about it, was it really worth it? I have the dream again, I have the dream again My ego dies at the end, it's ego death I live the dream like I still don't know what it meant Who am I? I've lost the thread My ego dies at the end Leave my body and my ego early Kill it kind with a surgeon's mercy Claim I put it out of its misery I have the dream again, I have the dream again My ego dies at the end, it's ego death I live the dream like I still don't know what it meant Who am I? I've lost the thread My ego dies at the end