Andre

The hidden pain on the final day

Just felt ordinary

And those final hours

Never seemed to phase me

But those long minutes

Felt like a drama movie scene

And that last second

Is now put on replay for me

For the next couple weeks

Numbness took over my body

Clueless on the months to come

Family would be tearing

Years and years

Sanity would be thrown away

And the will to live

Is questioned nearly every day

The time for joy in the colder years

Would find no right place or time

Troubles would be adding on

Trauma after trauma

Aches all throughout my head

Trembling at an unusual pace

Holding on to the familiar phrase

"You'll see him again one day"

Scraping by to survive

Trying to find ways to stay alive

Without my hero by my side

Feeling as if i'm cursed

Im sobbing "this can't get any worse"

Trying to find light in the rubble

All the words that I speak

And every action I do

Carries this burden on me

I wish I was with you

The wisdom, the knowledge

Everything I needed to hear

Is lost and won't ever be found

Until the end is near

Scraping by in order to survive

Trying to find ways to stay alive

Without my hero by my side

feeling as if i'm cursed

I'm sobbing "this can't get any worse"

Trying to find light in the rubble

They're was so much not said

Some many words ran through my head

On what I would say today

But These words will remain unspoken

My heart is still broken

And every time when I speak of you

I'm still choking