Big Cat

She

Seductress of courage and monarchy

Posed

High in the branches, she lies in wait for my neck

Unflinching as she stalks across the chessboard

At least she’s not negligent

Philosadistic mother

Hell hath no fury like her

With claws or scissors?

I am the child of the Big Cat

The rotten fruit of her womb

I am her black eyed princess

Now the world knows how you loved me

This is how you loved me!

You stripped me down to sinew and shame

Took a drill to my skull, and nailed there, I was to blame

My degradation, to repent upon your bruises and pray

Tell your God it’s my turn

I am the alpha, I am the alpha now

You are the carcass I crush between my

Jaws

I asked the beldam, where is your hostage now?

I am the alpha, I am the alpha

Bow

All you want, you can pray for me

Cleanse my unholy tendencies

From the base of my scalp grow horns

Proudly flaunt them, as you hide yours - so impious

I am the child of the Big Cat

The rotten fruit of her womb

I am her black eyed princess

Now the world knows how you loved me

This was your choice

This is mine

Let our company answer the cry

Let them stone you, and force you to suffer

As I

Martyr for memories you falsify

Prowl

Sprung from your dungeon, I am your bringer of death

Unflinching as you kneel upon my chessboard

No act of ambivalence

Unsympathetic daughter

This is my final letter

I call you 'mother'

I am the alpha, I am the alpha now

You are the carcass I crush between my

Jaws

I asked the beldam, where is your hostage now?

I am the alpha, I am the alpha

Bow

You pinned me to the wall by my throat

So I wouldn’t cry out

You let me drop to the floor

So I could run outside

And tell my dad I don’t feel safe at home

He said "you’ll be fine"

Father, I was eight years old

I was eight years old!