Patterns

We break We scream We fight Build scars We take From each Leave wounds Make flaws Poison When we speak No boundaries At all We place Our blames But don't own Our own faults It's my fault It's my fault It's my fault It's my fault Cause I did you wrong Now all of your friends, they tell you to move on I understand and I get their intent, that they just have your back but it takes two to tango but to everyone' thinks that you cannot be flawed Cussing me out in these public disputes, to my face they play cute, then they turn right around and tell you that I'm fake When truth is they tell you one thing then they tell me another, they're playing both sides of the gate Drama they crave and we're caught in their scopes I've owned my mistakes but to them it don't show I gathered my strength and I've tried to explain but if I'm being frank there ain't one explanation to them that I owe Don't take this offensive but Jesus I've grown Yes I have fucked up, I am a big fuck up, so fuck it I know Toxic I may be but you ain't no angel, you don't wear halos Jesus I'm human, I don't walk on water I'm not Eminem and I'm trying my hardest to not let emotions just bury me no Maybe I'm better off being alone I really don't know We break We scream We fight Build scars We take From each Leave wounds Make flaws Poison When we speak No boundaries At all We place Our blames But don't own Our own faults It's my fault It's my fault It's my fault It's my fault Cause I did you wrong Now these accusations tell you to move on I understand and I get how it looks, that I'm playing these games and I know the expression, perception nine tenths of the law You get in my face, if these walls were to speak I can't even imagine the stories they'd tell What gory details every argument paints and I hate to pass blame but it's not just my self Constructing this toxic environment, I'm not the one that put us on the shelf Fact of the matter my people don't interject into our problems and stir up the pot till it boils and spills If our life is a movie I wanna drop kick the projector that's rolling the film True definition of happiness inside your life is to love and be loved and if love is a drug then I'd rather be sober at will With draw and heal Maybe you're better off being alone, maybe I'll do the same but the truth is I really don't know how to feel I really don't know how to feel