Lump

There's a lump in my throat And I'm tryna push it down Will I feel any better once it's gone? Don't wanna feel what I've become So I'll sit here getting numb There's a lump that won't go, that won't go There's a lump in my throat I hit my all-time low But I'm better off thinking that I can dig myself out of this hole But I don't know This doesn't feel like there's somewhere to go This doesn't feel like before on High sensory overload, load, load Just because my mind says "We're breaking down slow" Doesn't mean I'm bailing out So steady as she goes There's a lump in my throat And I'm tryna push it down Puff a smoke, two benzos Try to ride it, ride it out Don't wanna feel what I've become So I'll sit here getting numb There's a lump that won't go, that won't go There's a lump in my throat Time has never been on my side Been caught tryna figure out Why I'm a little less Jekyll than Hyde And I get tired This doesn't feel like there's somewhere to go This doesn't feel like before on High sensory overload, load, load Just because my mind says "We're breaking down slow" Doesn't mean I'm bailing out So steady as she goes There's a lump in my throat And I'm tryna push it down Puff a smoke, two benzos Try to ride it, ride it out Don't wanna feel what I've become So I'll sit here getting numb There's a lump that won't go, that won't go There's a lump in my throat My mind says we're breaking down slow Baby, I ain't bailing out so steady as she goes My mind says we're breaking down slow Baby, I ain't bailing out, so steady as she goes There's a lump in my throat And I'm tryna push it down Puff a smoke, two benzos Try to ride it, ride it out Don't wanna feel what I've become So I'll sit here getting numb There's a lump that won't go, that won't go There's a lump in my throat