Bloom

Reclaiming my decision to act 

On this impulse one more day

Thought I might enjoy myself

It's been tiresome

Pursuing this dream of mine

Been loosening my own restraints every night

Take some time for recollection

Can’t expect my mind constantly run in overdrive

All in moderation 

I've decided elation repeats nevermore

Vocalizing another deceitful reaction

Disappear on occasion

Delaying the foundation I’ve implemented

Exhaustion feels required 

Formulate occasions turning 

Off the switch 

Slow the pace

Exclude the intrusions

Keep a level head about yourself

Calm down

Worked up a misgiving 

Uncertainties crashing down from atmospheres

Efflorescence expedites

Peak serenity while you’ve got 

The second to spare for now

Lights out

Rearrange what I believe

Cleansing my demonic  

Fascination with this actuality

Suppression

Never found it so responsible

As I stimulate devastation

Using my own investment

Expenditure disrepaired

Assessing where it all began

Looking back to the bloom 

Attempt to pinpoint a certain incentive

Rational intention

Masquerading behind my own prolapsed resignation 

Disabled this palisade

Recognize more than what preceded before this

I have selected a substance of choice

Disseminated conception

I'll try again

See how I fail

(Drowning out the noise

Shift focus to another

Subject for the moment

Quietly discovered entity 

Proposed affirmation 

To the extent of the 

Marginal retrospection

Defying preconceived 

Idiosyncrasy yet

Still you know this won’t last

Til the end of veneration)

Axioms denied once in a while

At least that’s what I announced

Attention declared absent

Hoping it comes back