Drowning

Lately my thoughts have been taking me over Father forgive me for sayin' I'm over The pain and struggle that plagued me for so much Time that I coulda spent not getting older but (Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh) I guess time ticks on Forget about me as the lights switch off (Flick) Feelin' so right but movin' so wrong Feelin' so weak but I'm actin' strong For you, 'cause I can't disappoint So well-rounded that I can't make a point So damn loud up in my brain, hear the noise (Hear that?) I couldn't hear you (Nope) Probably 'cause I'm nowhere near you (I'm gone) I'm locked up inside of my mind but it's fine Imma try to swim but I really feel like I'm drowning Drowning slowly Floating, lonely Feeling hopeless Drowning in emotions Drowning slowly Floating, lonely Feeling hopeless Drowning in emotions Feeling insane yet too normal I'mma sleep through the day until I'm nocturnal I'mma keep all this pain 'til my heart's purple 'Cause letting it out makes it hurt more so Tell me a fact that I don't believe Leave the keys and the mat by the door when you leave (It's locked) Tell me the truth when it's fantasy Then tell me a lie just to plant the seed I'm tired (Tired), too awake (Too awake) I'm cold (Cold), I'm the flame (I'm the flame) I'm silent (Shh), what'd I say? (Huh) That knowing of dreams makes it worse to be awake I said it (I said it) Take that to the bank and debt it (And debt it) And while my depression cripples me You'll see these puddles are rippling me I'm drowning Drowning slowly Floating, lonely Feeling hopeless Drowning in emotions Drowning slowly Floating, lonely Feeling hopeless Drowning in emotions Tell me what's my purpose? (Purpose) Tell me what's my reason? (Reason) Tell me why I'm warm on the surface When actually I'm freezing? (Brr) I'm tired of fighting these demons constant I'm tired of lighting up weed to stop it I'm tired of thinking I'm working it out Until I see none of my grief is stoppin' I'm sick (Sick), I need a medic (Need a medic) I'm split (Split), I'm assembling (I'm assembling) It's a trick (Trick), I'm a menace (I'm a menace) Would you give me a sentence? Or something to say when I feel so low? When the deep black water impedes my throat When I'm gasping for air, and I breathe and choke That you feel my pain when you read this note I'm drowning Drowning slowly Floating, lonely Feeling hopeless Drowning in emotions Drowning slowly Floating, lonely Feeling hopeless Drowning in emotions