I Find it Hard to Feel Alive

Flashes of neon lights And my past goodbyes All these good intentions were just a bad disguise Broken fingers, bloodshot eyes This dependence Will be the death of me There's a monster in me That wears my face Rooted deep within My childhood memories I did my best to hide my thoughts But I could not escape The way it turned my innocence Into this hellscape Flashes of neon lights And my past goodbyes All these good intentions were just a bad disguise Broken fingers, bloodshot eyes This dependence Will be the death of me Now I do all I can to mend All the violence and decay You sent my way But I can still feel the bite of your teeth Behind my every heartbeat Flashes of neon lights And my past goodbyes All these good intentions were just a bad disguise Broken fingers, bloodshot eyes This dependence Will be the death of me Drain me of my marrow What else is there to give What else is there to give All I ever wanted as to live free Now I'm just a monument To my own tragedy