Mess

I used to hold my head a little differently But over the years it's got the better of me Jealousy, slowly takes its toll, to a place I know I can't control I've stopped to think of what has lead me here A time when hope just never seemed sincere Some clarity, a broken dream, the realisation, it's not for me I think I'm getting better I think I'll finally see I've been a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me Got something on my chest and I've got nothing left to lose I can't figure out, I can't put it down That I'm a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me So now I'm here, and if tomorrow I'm not Whose been the one around me really calling the shots? It's been a god damn nightmare feeling the same Year after year, but not saying a fucking thing I think I'm getting better I think I finally see I've been a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me Got something on my chest and I've got nothing left to lose I can't figure out, I can't put it down To another night of standing all alone in the crowd That I'm a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me Best for me I've been beaten again Left blown in the wind I'll never say never again Say never again I've been a god damn mess but it's the god damn best for me Got something on my chest and I've got nothing left to lose I can't figure out, I can't put it down To another night of standing all alone in the crowd That I'm a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me I've been a god damn mess and it's the god damn best for me Got something on my chest and I've got nothing left to lose Cause can't figure out, and I can't put it down To another night of standing all alone in the crowd Cause I'm a god damn mess but it's the god damn best for me