F****g Smiling

You're doing better 80-degree weather at Dolly's I bought a ticket 'cause you felt dismissive I'm sorry Well, it's hot as shit And you're doing bits I'm laughing at it It's cracking my lips And I didn't mean it Just wanted to see that you'd want me Ooh, and I'm as sad as the cotton candy In a bag you left at the entry I've been fucking smiling (smiling, smiling) I've been taking one, two, three, four, five breaths Trying to keep from crying (crying, crying) Counting all the things I almost said I'd hate for you to see The way you broke my heart I don't wanna leave I'll get back in the car I'll keep fucking smiling And that's the saddest part Small talking and pandering Both of my hands are in pockets Choking on air saying I dyed my hair But you saw it Then I took a hit And offered you it And you said you quit Well, I'm still addicted Still on the carousel Waiting even though they stopped it And I'm as sad as cotton candy Sugar and air it's all so empty I've been fucking smiling (smiling, smiling) I've been taking one, two, three, four, five breaths Trying to keep from crying (crying, crying) Counting all the things I almost said I'd hate for you to see The way you broke my heart I don't wanna leave Get back in the car I'll keep fucking smiling And that's the saddest part I'd hate for you to see The way you broke my heart I don't wanna leave Get back in the car I'll keep fucking smiling And that's the saddest part Remember in the bodega for Pop Chips at one in the morning? Say goodbye to aphasia And all of the words I've been hoarding