pain for fun (feat. St. Vincent)

There's always, and always, and always, and always a need

There's always, and always, and always, and always a need

When I see you smile, there's always that familiar feeling

Somehow I'm not the only one

There's always, and always, and always, and always a need

There's always, and always, and always, and always a need

When you start to cry, I get that familiar feeling

Somehow I'm not the only one

I'm so close to tears

I'm biting, holding back

I'm so happy I could break down and cry

Break down and cry

So alone and so at home

So alone and so at home

I'm always, and always, and always, and always in need

I'm always, and always, and always, and always in need

When we lock our eyes, I hit my head on the ceiling

I'm not the only one

Always wanting something, yearning, feeling indifferent, undeserving

What am I?

What am I now?

And if I catch a glimpse of you while I hide

Will you walk away from me and kill my pride?

It's fine

'Cause I feel this pain for fun

I'm so close to tears

I'm biting, holding back

I'm so happy I could break down and cry

Break down and cry

So alone and so at home

So alone and so at home