July

You're out in the park

And you look so cool

Holding on for dear life

This is your rewrite

What have you been up to and

How are you really doing?

You seem kinda sad

And I can't find my lighter

I never thought

That it could feel

Somehow even worse

Than the first time

But in my head

I know it's the end

Was so disappointed

When we first kissed

Taste of tar on my breath

Slurring but not pissed

What have you been up to and

How are you really doing?

You seem kinda fine

And I'm almost dying

Head in my hands

Still I drag on

Can barely breathe

I'm smoking baby

As you invite

A sense of relief

Now that I'm gone

I won't scream or talk in brash terms

Just sit quietly

I never thought

That it could feel

Somehow even worse

Than the first time

But in my head

I know it's the end

I take it back

I don't want this to be over

I take it back

I know I was the one who made it end

And if you're hung on still

Forgive me for it all

You made me think this was over

You won't have to take a smoker

Again