My Hallelujah

You always disappoint me You do it all the time Can't you see from my face? I'm the bluest blue you'll ever see It's never been my full intention To have you 'round 24-7 But for once, could you pretty please Not run out on me? I don't know what you're hunting It's not me, it's something else And I can't deny That I am hurting I know it's never-ever With us, we're not forever You won't be for me My hallelujah In the middle of the night Did you think I'd be alone Waiting patiently for you to come home? I'm not the waiting kind You can't ruin my mind I'll find somebody else to call mine Can't emphasise enough how hard it's been To know the one you love resents you It's a sad sorry state of affairs we got going on The way we work is masochistic And all I want to do is fix it This kind of love never lasts If it does, it will kill you Thought I'd found a new religion In you, who was I kidding? There's nowhere to go Except for under Quarantine, all of my spite It hurts too much to fight You'll never be for me My hallelujah In the middle of the night Did you think I'd be alone Waiting patiently for you to come home? I'm not the waiting kind You can't ruin my mind I'll find somebody else to call mine In the middle of the night Did you think I'd be alone Waiting patiently for you to come home? I'm not the waiting kind You can't ruin my mind I'll find somebody else to call mine You raise me up, you bring me down You throw my body to the ground You stampede over me so freely And in the triumphs of a day Where I think everything's OK You look at me so insincerely And in the mirror staring back at me, stupidity I've always been a sucker for your cruelty I've had a word with myself And for the sake of my health I'll no longer mend the unfixable In the middle of the night Did you think I'd be alone Waiting patiently for you to come home? I'm not the waiting kind You can't ruin my mind I'll find somebody else to call mine In the middle of the night Did you think I'd be alone Waiting patiently for you to come home? I'm not the waiting kind You can't ruin my mind I'll find somebody else to call mine (I'm not the waiting kind) (You can't ruin my mind) (I'm not the waiting kind) To call mine (I'm not the waiting kind) (The waiting kind) (The waiting kind) To call mine (I'm not the waiting kind) (You can't ruin my mind) (I'm not the waiting kind) To call mine (I'm not the waiting kind) (The waiting kind) (The waiting kind)