The Hardest Part

I'm trying to wrap my head around this It's just too dark to see the light I've never given a thought to a life Without you here by my side Everything made sense Like how to face the world And give it all we had I'm counting days I can't remember the last time I saw your face I can only hope you found what saved you From all the heartache and pain I've never given a thought to a life Without you here by my side Everything made sense Like how to face the world And give it all we had And I feel so numb How long has it been? It feels like forever And I can't face the light I don't want to face the light But I know you're gone And I can't change that And I know it's time To allow myself to feel Feel the warmth in my heart What were the last words that I said? I can't remember Did I tell you I loved you? Maybe if I scream loud enough, you'll hear me Can you hear me? The smile on my face can't fill my empty heart Hold your breath, count to three I'm screaming my lungs out Oh God, I've missed you And I thank you for making me, making me feel alive Oh God, I've missed you What were the last words that I said? I can't even remember You were my closest friend and I thank you For making me love everything alive (Hold your breath, count to three) I am screaming, can you hear me? (Take my hand, I can feel it too) hold your breath count to three (There's a place better than here) what were the last words I said? (Close your eyes, it'll all be over soon) Hold your breath, count to three Take my hands, I can feel it too There's a place better than here Close your eyes, it'll all be over soon