It Was Not Natural

When I am tired And late at night go for a walk I have to work Or else I do not recognize myself Laugh, food and colors When my heart wishes years of treasure Seemingly foreign But somehow still it is familiar It could be under It could be animal or ander They do resemble They do remember one another It was not natural, not at all Only human hate Could give us something so unforgiving It was not natural, not at all Only human hate Could give us something so unforgiving Something so unforgiving As I expected With time it hasn't gotten easier I have to work now At things that used to be like breathing I try to focus Forgive myself for having so much I am too busy fooling Or else I am not busy enough When I see clearly I know we share the same devotion The joy is hungry And you know one can promise anything It was not natural, not at all Only human hate Could give us something so unforgiving It was not natural, not at all Only human hate Could give us something so unforgiving Something so unforgiving