Solanine

When I'm lucid I wish to lose id, instead I lose it Self-consumed, in my room pursuing music Momma asking "Where the fruits is? Why are you useless? Why are you clueless about the world? Rav, your room stinks!" She thinks I don't give two shits Truth is, she might be right I fail to see the light in both gold and family pride Am I the catcher in the rye? Batshit in disguise? Tossed reality for an imaginable life? 'Bout to be kicked out the house, get detached from paradise Only recognizes then, mirror shows a parasite With a shifty pair of eyes In this shifting paradigm I ain't shit, apparently Parents think that I don't try Trying to fight the system, bound to play into its hands, man They say stay grounded, but the floor is lava for the madman Upside down approach, in the lava doing handstands Probably ain't no different, just a bad plan (This is what it feels like) This is what real life feels like (This is what it feels like) (This is what it feels like) Whenever you feel nice, realize (This is what it feels like) Yo, I gotta take advice There's a demon lurking in this town I gotta jump the rail of life (This is what it feels like) This is what real life feels like (This is what it feels like) Yup, this is what real life feels like See, this is what it feels like When nobody looking for you, but you still hide When you been kicked your habits like the pill life Took that monkey off your back but it still bites Will I ever get anywhere but right here? Chasing happiness but never getting quite near Every waking moment most vivid of nightmares I'm weird, fuck it, I'll admit it, man, I ain't care And they say he was a thug, I never knew my dad When my mom looks at me, what is she looking at? Ever since I got kicked out of school for cooking crack, then pushing crack I wonder if she sees me as my crooked dad I've fucked up too many times, and I still might Tried to kill myself and failed, still don't feel alive Grasping at straws in the dark with no real light I ain't feeling great This what real life feels like Right? (This is what it feels like) This is what real life feels like (This is what it feels like) (This is what it feels like) Whenever you feel nice, realize (This is what it feels like) Yo, I gotta take advice There's a demon lurking in this town I gotta jump the rail of life (This is what it feels like) This is what real life feels like (This is what it feels like) Yup, this is what real life feels like