It's Not the Same Anymore

I'll keep the pictures saved in a safe place Wow, I look so weird here My face has changed now It's a big shame So many feelings, struggling to leave my mouth And it's not that rare for me to let myself down In a big way But I had enough time and I found enough reason to accept that It's not the same anymore I lost the joy in my face My life was simple before I should be happy, of course But things just got much harder Now it's just hard to ignore It's not the same anymore It's not the same anymore It's not the same, but, it's not a shame 'cause I spend a long time putting up with people Putting on my best face It's only normal when you stop things in the wrong way It's only four o'clock and still, it's been a long day I just wanna hit the hay People knocking on me like every day I'm tired of taking stress If only there could be another way I'm tired of feeling suppressed And when they want me the most I'm tired of acting like I care, but I do And I can't wait to hit the bed But tomorrow makes me scared 'Cause it's not the same anymore I lost the joy in my face My life was simple before I should be happy, of course (of course) But things just got much harder Now it's just hard to ignore It's not the same anymore (it's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) It's not the same anymore (it's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) (It's not the same) I kept the feelings inside I open up when shit gets built up this high She makes it easy to cry The words fall out of me and there's no more disguise I miss the days when I was someone else I used to be so hungry Right now, my stomach's full of air And I've spent many months just hating on myself I can't keep wishing things will be different Or leaving problems on the shelf I wish I didn't need to get help But I do But I do I've been so hard on myself, yeah Even my family can tell And they barely saw what I felt I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else It's not the same (It's not the same) (It's not the same) It's not the same as before It's not the same anymore And it's fine because I've learned so much from before Now I'm not sure on advice There's no excuses at all No point in feeling upset Won't take my place on my floor I'll stand up straight like I'm tall It's up to me, no one else I'm doing this for myself It's not the same anymore It's better It got better It's not the same anymore It's better Yeah, yeah