Used To

Yeah Used to I used to feel like the world was against me I used to feel like no one understands me I used to write in the back of my class I heard em talking but never attached Focused on music but somehow I passed I tend to leave before anything lasts I hate a lot of things I used to do I used to fight for no reason in school Feeling bad now that I made fun of you I'm sorry for that Blame it on drama inside of my head Blame it on anger inside of my chest Too many words that I shouldn't have said I'm tired of lying so I'll tell the truth I would manipulate just to get through Ah, just to get through You called it a home, but it felt like a roof Yeah So I took it out on everyone I knew How many bottles I went through That I went through All I know, all I know I'm not in control If you really knew the person that I am inside my soul Then you might run away In the mirror watch it break I don't recognize all of the shit I did back in the day Back in the day Making fun of peoples' something that I used to do Blame my father for my problems something that I used to do Judging others by the way they look is what I used to do Get addicted to some medications what I used to do It's what I used to do It's what I used to do The world we're living in is burning this ain't new to you It's what we used to do It's what we used to do Are you gonna do it different guess that is for you to choose Always got lost in the lows, never got stuck in the highs So many people look up to me only because I been speaking my mind I been looking for something to fill up a void, but I'm in a space that I cannot define To all of the kids who are wondering why You're looking for answers I cannot provide One step then it's two to three Run away from the human that I used to be I'm in a new degree But this is the truth they refuse to see I'll stand alone on this mountain now Coming up I'm just counting down Got a problem just cutting out All the friends that were not around, not around All I know, all I know I'm not in control If you really knew the person that I am inside my soul Then you might run away In the mirror watch it break I don't recognize all of the shit I did back in the day Yeah All I know, all I know I'm not in control If you really knew the person that I am inside my soul Then you might run away In the mirror watch it break I don't recognize all of the shit I did back in the day Way too many thoughts for me to sleep at night It took a couple years for me to come back out and see the light Written hundreds of songs, most of em tossed aside Take a peek inside my mind I offer you a piece of mine The greatest gift that we've been given is the gift of time And if you're growing in the passing days then you should not align With what you used to do The person that you used to be I'm killing off the villain that I was this is his eulogy