I Can't Decide Why I'm Alive

I can't decide why I'm alive And I won't try Cause I don't mind Same shit, new day I'm running to the bag yeah I'm running to the pay I been thinking 'bout the past, if it's something to the pain Yeah I been through the dark but I'm A-Okay Just Lost in the system, man on mission Looking at my wrists no slits inflicted Sometimes I wish that I could get distant From all the pain, I thank God that I'm gifted Bitch yeah So step back mother fucker, I been really with the shit, know that mother fucker I'm a boss in this bitch, cross on my wrist I was lost in the mist, no track mother fucker I could taste it, stepping out this matrix Vacation to the safe haven Play making, play till I make it Riding with God, I won't stop no way bitch I can't decide why I'm alive And I won't try Cause I don't mind I can't decide why I'm alive And I won't try Cause I don't mind