Not Good But Better

I ain't always good, but I'm feeling better though Drinking whiskey, hetero, calendar is lookin' like the Skillset, there ain't a lot of hoes in my schedule Homies on the same shit, I no longer meddle though I ain't tryna give the tea, but I got kettles though I want everyone to love me, but I'm a rebel though And my music take 'em places I don't get to go Haven't come to terms with that, I'll feel more than I'll ever know I have got to, I have got to I have got to get away 'fore I'm out of my mind I thought too hard, I lost you Y'all try and stop, who really loves you? What you tryin' to find? Try and make space for my feelings, that shit make me humble Save grace for the meals, healin' is a stumble If you gon' thank God for the blessings, thank Him for the troubles Get a couple chips, and then they fold, that's how the cookie crumbles I guess I let the fear project I say, I love, they hear, reject And here's the rub, I made a mess I cleaned it off by bleeding less Can't understand what we accept Can't understate how we neglect They underrate 'til we give less I'm underpaid, I'm overstressed I ain't always good, but I'm feeling better though Drinking whiskey, hetero, calendar is lookin' like the Skillset, there ain't a lot of hoes in my schedule Homies on the same shit, I no longer meddle though I ain't tryna give the tea, but I got kettles though I want everyone to love me, but I'm a rebel though And my music take 'em places I don't get to go Haven't come to terms with that, I'll feel more than I'll ever know I have got to, I have got to I have got to get away 'fore I'm out of my mind I thought too hard, I lost you Y'all try and stop, who really loves you? What you tryin' to find?