Loved Ones

I been tryna find some ways to cope Wit my emotions Ohhh ohhhhh My Emotions I lost my brothers to these streets Dat shit left me broken And I've been tryna find some ways To cope wit my emotions I use to look up to dis cat it turned Out he a rodent I can't believe I seen my mama in a Casket frozen Goin thru some pain I don't feel no Love Seems like my only solution is a cure Dat resides in drugs I been losin hope and I feel like givin Up Swear I ain't got no soul every bit of It been crushed Had to let tears fall now they fallin Harder than the rain ain't no tellin Wen the storm end Wish heaven had a number I cud dial It up and call them I miss my loved ones I wud trade Places wit all of dem Still reminisce about them times me And Steph was droppin Dimes Won't forget them days wen me and Porn was ballin on the grind Be lyin if I said ice doe and boogie Ain't been on my mind Mama was a hustler use trash grind She put in over time Just to make sure we was right cuz We done had some sleepless nights So I started trappin just to make sure We cud eat at night Been trapped inside the darkness for So long couldn't see the light Wanna quit but mama voice keep Tellin me tah keep da fight Constant battles wit my thoughts this Life ain't fair I ain't prayin tah god cuz he ain't Answering my prayers Every time I close my eyes I'm force To face all of my fears These Smiles cud cover hidden cries But ain't no covering these tears Cuz I'm so broke I come from the Trenches full of false hope To many times I seen them casket Doors close Can't wait to see my Loved ones at dem cross-roads at Dem cross I watch my dawg shed some tear Inside my car he cudnt hide his pain Cuz he lost his uncle and his death Been heavy on his brain If he ain't have his daughter fuck Around he might ah went insane Losses after losses after losses wen This shit gon change Been so traumatized lately I can't Even get no sleep in Drowning in these cries and I can't Help da fact I keep on sankin Mental suicidal might just ease da Pain or make it even Searchin for da answers hopin I cud Just escape the feelings Wanna just let go I swear tah god dis Shit keep stressin me Everyday a struggle I can't let my Mama Rest In Peace Lil bro hit my line and told me go Live on her legacy Now it's EVE you kno that shit is till The death of me