Pilot

I guess I'm excited that Jesus provided a simple way out Cause free will has a pilot, but I'm never driving with these pills in my mouth My doctor said that I'm alright here in my bed But it's important to not miss my appointments The news I've read that all these kids are fucking dead For every cardboard empire that they're building instead No moments for silence I guess I'm enlightened, it's 3 points for trying just to live with yourself For 2 years and some mileage I knew I was dying and somebody else My mother said that I'm okay up in my head Like a department store on almost Christmas Eve A newlywed to the idea of being sweet And getting past the point of fucking all the friends I've had No moments for silence No moments for silence I guess you're invited My funerals Friday, but don't come alone I'm buried by the violets with all I'm prescribed with in place of a coat My body said that I should fill it up with lead And let the dust be the dust we disturbed and bled Cause in my threads Yes I'm okay that I have tried To be something I wanted but hated instead That I hated instead