Depression

I can't find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help, mm But I pushed all of 'em away I took the cards they dealt And there's nothin' I can change So, when I'm by myself I just pray for brighter days Sometimes I sit, and I reminisce 'bout the good times Wish I could get those back I keep on runnin' these races that go in my mind And they go on these tracks I'm not ready to erase all my memories Hmm, I fight depression and I let it get the best of me Now there's nowhere to run, nowhere to go Look around, there's liquor bottles all on the floor Fillin' up the space inside my heart and my home Drownin' out these thoughts until they leave me alone I can't find myself I get lost inside my brain Think I might need help But I pushed all of 'em away I took the cards they dealt And there's nothin' I can change So, when I'm by myself I just pray for brighter days These thoughts are drainin' all my energy I try to tell 'em to God, they said, I'm goin' insane And then they recommended therapy And I go and talk to a man who's gettin' paid to explain He started sayin' that the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain Ain't connectin' to accomplishments associated with movin' on in life And pass the things that my heart cannot contain So that happiness won't sustain And he read me my options He said, "Here goes a pill, only take two, eat a meal" And they don't know how I feel (know how I feel...) I can't find myself (I can't find myself) I get lost inside my brain Think I might need help (think I might need help) But I pushed all of 'em away I took the cards they dealt (took the cards they dealt) And there's nothin' I can change So, when I'm by myself (when I'm by myself) I just pray for brighter days Should I drown all these thoughts, or should I leave 'em to float? I've got all of my flaws livin' inside of this boat I've been anchored in pain, the weight is makin' me choke It's gettin' harder to breathe, it's pullin' right at my throat I've been hopin' for change, but don't know how to restart They say you ain't a man when you're exposin' your heart Then they say you insane until it tears you apart And then it cuts you so deep, and they can tell by the scars We can only see change when we accept who we are Try to run from the shame, and you will never get far Don't you bottle the pain and live your life in the dark You're meant to break from those chains and shine as bright as a star Don't you ever tell yourself that your depression Is the reason you won't make it or that happiness is not in your cards With our God, you can beat all the odds Keep your faith, and you'll never be lost and say I can't find myself I get lost inside my brain Think I might need help (I think I might need help) But I pushed all of 'em away (I pushed all of them away) I took the cards they dealt And there's nothin' I can change So, when I'm by myself I just pray for brighter days