In A While

Thought I got better, but I don't know how to smile

I haven't really been too happy in a while

I been tryna numb the pain, I still feel down

Shit, I guess there ain't no other way around

But with getting dumb high

Smoke till I'm fried

Had to grow up fast, but the past is still on my mind

I seen that shit happen in front of me, traumatized

I've been through so much, so I'm glad that I'm still alive

I'm not tryna fuck with no one, but for you I'm all in

And I been stuck in my mind, everyday I'm falling

Getting closer to my death, I'm closer to my coffin

Sipping lean and pop a perky, now I'm steady coughing

All in, wouldn't be here for my twin

He told me to keep my head up, Imma get my bread up, Imma go in

Know my auntie up in heaven, that shit ain't a question, she be talking

To me, Imma make eleven K or either seven K I'm calling

Imma make my papa and my momma proud

It ain't bout clout, I just want my gang to make it out

Ain't going south, Imma grind and Imma do it now

I haven't smiled, but that's cool numb it with smoking loud

Thought I got better, but I don't know how to smile

I haven't really been too happy in a while

I been tryna numb the pain, I still feel down

Shit, I guess there ain't no other way around

But with getting dumb high

Smoke till I'm fried

Had to grow up fast, but the past is still on my mind

I seen that shit happen in front of me, traumatized

I've been through so much, so I'm glad that I'm still alive

I don't know if I can take it anymore, no

I think I finally lost it, I fell to my core, uh

I'm paranoid I don't when it's my final day

Not tryna feel nun, I don't wanna be here take my pain, uh

I say I'm okay when I'm tripping, I be lying

Sometimes I don't even wan' be here feel like dying

I'm in a battle with my self, tired of fighting

And I'm gon be honest I'm tired of just trying

I'm going for the top, you know that I be climbing

You gotta do what you gotta when you surviving

Shorty you special, I swear you is like a diamond

And you a star shorty that's why you always shining

Up in a room with my friends, but I still feel alone

I gotta fight, but I can't

By myself, by my lone

I think I need someone's help, but I gotta fight on my own

You don't even know what I felt, shit I've been feeling so low

Thought I got better, but I don't know how to smile

I haven't really been too happy in a while

I been tryna numb the pain, I still feel down

Shit, I guess there ain't no other way around

But with getting dumb high

Smoke till I'm fried

Had to grow up fast, but the past is still on my mind

I seen that shit happen in front of me, traumatized

I've been through so much, so I'm glad that I'm still alive

Thought I got better, but I don't know how to smile

I haven't really been too happy in a while

I been tryna numb the pain, I still feel down

Shit, I guess there ain't no other way around

But with getting dumb high

Smoke till I'm fried

Had to grow up fast, but the past is still on my mind

I seen that shit happen in front of me, traumatized

I've been through so much, so I'm glad that I'm still alive