Please, come help
It started with me, with 16
When no one thought anything
It was all for fun (all for fun)
But the fun's become
Pains, a lot of heartbreak
Too much giving, no taste
Sleepless nights and fake goodbyes
If I'm being honest
It's not what I thought it would be
Giving my life and learning my vices
Spending my nights with
Something I know that kills me
It's not how I thought it would feel
Numbing my days and throwing away
Everything I could be
I know what I'm doing, I know I should stop the pain
Bury the pain, block out the shame, and do it again
I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am
'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get enough
I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help
Here I am at 23
This isn't who I'm supposed to be
I've lost control (lost control)
And no one knows
I'm so out of touch with reality
I thought that these things would help me
My world's been broke, I can't let go
If I'm being honest
It's not what I thought it would be
Giving my life and learning my vices
Spending my nights with
Something I know that kills me
It's not how I thought it would feel
Numbing my days and throwing away
Everything I could be
I know what I'm doing, I know I should stop the pain
Bury the pain, block out the shame, and do it again
I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am
'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get enough
I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help
For a moment, I see the hell I've caused
And all the people I hurt before I disregard
My better judgement, dammit, I can't help it
Only one more time, I swear this is the last time that I
Bury the pain, block out the shame, and do it again
I look in the mirror, wipe a few tears, I hate who I am
'Cause I can't give it up, no, I can't get enough
I can't stop myself, someone, please, come help
