I'm Different Now

I intellectualize my feelings Then I get high to drown them out I know the hurt is part of healing Wish you were here to hold me now All I can feel is your indifference Back then I thought that I deserved it There's nothin' I could do to fix it I guess I'm still learning how to live with it If I was still an optimist I would just move on from this But I, I'm different now Forgave your broken promises Yeah, I loved you though all of it But I, I'm different now Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another away Cuz I, I'm different now Drove by your house again last weekend Remember when it felt like home I think a part of me's still in there Do you ever feel my ghost? I only see you in my nightmares Sometimes I wish that I could haunt you What if I'm always gonna be scared What if I'm always gonna want you If I was still an optimist I would just move on from this But I, I'm different now Forgave your broken promises Yeah, I loved you though all of it But I, I'm different now Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another away Cuz I, I'm different now I'm sorry that I wasn't older Were we ever really friends? I think I'm finally glad it's over It still hurts but it hurts less If I was still an optimist I would just move on from this But I, I'm different now Forgave your broken promises Yeah, I loved you though all of it But I, I'm different now Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another away Cuz I, I'm different now Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another away Cuz I, I'm different now