i only smoke to feel bad

Okay, okay, okay, okay Psychoanalyzing all of my decisions In the middle of the night (night) I'm revisiting the messages I sent to That one guy back in July (ooh) All my friends ask, "What's the matter? You seem so under the weather" They take drugs and they feel better Not me I only smoke to feel bad (okay, okay, okay, okay) I get anxious, I go home (I'm sorry) I don't know why I do that (I'm sorry, I'm sorry) Is it something you outgrow? (Oh, no) Endless cycle, feeling psycho Watch some YouTube (sick) I only smoke to feel bad (okay, okay, okay, okay) I guess I like to feel bad (I'm sorry) Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay I think that I'm overthinking Am I talking way too loud? Wish I hadn't blurred my vision Guys, I might be freaking out (ah) All my friends ask, "What's the matter? You seem so under the weather" They take drugs and they feel better Not me I only smoke to feel bad (okay, okay, okay, okay) I get anxious, I go home (I'm sorry) I don't know why I do that (I'm sorry, I'm sorry) Is it something you outgrow? (Oh, no) Endless cycle, feeling psycho Watch some YouTube (sick) I only smoke to feel bad (okay, okay, okay, okay) I guess I like to feel bad (I'm sorry) Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay I only smoke to I only smoke to (I'm sorry) Guess I like to feel bad, don't know why I do that Guess I like to smoke until I'm choking on my own past Guess I like to (feel bad, don't know why I do that) Guess I like to (like the feeling of when I'm dreaming or am I-) Guess I like to feel bad, don't know why I do that Guess I like to smoke until I'm choking on my own past Guess I like to (feel bad) Guess I like to