Please Explain

Aunty Rana, I miss you It's been 10 years ever since you I hate them words, I don't wanna continue I'm sorry that I haven't come to see you Wish you were here cause since that day Things got worse and nothing has changed Mya and millie all grown up now I see you upset when I look at their face No one cares about what's going on If you can hear me I hate this song Some nights I can't even sleep cause Your daughters are crying for help and your gone I know how their feeling I can't believe I'm still waiting for my father to come back And I'm crying cause I shouldn't tell you The girls don't live with their dad And it's sad Cause Amelia she doesn't even speak no more It's not her fault she lost her mum But whys she gotta lose one more Everyone keeps asking me why is always angry for like After all of these years Nostop pain, non stop tears She feels like there's nothing lose Please try to put yourself in their shoes I'm really trying to understand What was the plan When the only person that Gave them the world is under this tomb I don't know what to do Your sister is sick the pain in her heart From all of the shit my dad putting her through I just wanna take my life away I just wanna see my aunties face If I had a choice to make to replace you And put me in the grave I'm sick of this place And the only reason why I'm still doing music Is maybe one day my fathers watching me on TV And he'll recognise my face I got so much pain Even though your back in my life now It won't be the same I know I've been praying for this day And I'll take the blame But how can I trust you ever again If you can't explain, please explain I feel like I'm living in hell That's why I'm always screaming for help I don't want to hear you say that you love me How can you love me When I don't even love myself Can someone please explain Cause I'm just trying to find my way I got so much pain Even though your back in my life now It won't be the same I know I've been praying for this day And I'll take the blame But how can I trust you ever again If you can't explain, please explain Dear Dad I just turned 23 And I can't believe that your not here Cause mum told me you were overseas And that one day you'll be back Why was she crying when she told me that Sebz out in the streets And I'm still asking where you're at Now I'm wiping the tears Off of my mums face But I'm falling in the rain I don't even know Who I'm writing anymore Cause I'm drowning in the pain This is my my last letter We could've been so close But you pushed me away And I don't want sit here Writing an essay no more Can you please explain Cause I'm so tired of these introductions I want know your side of the story I'm not making assumptions But why did you leave me I'm old enough to have that discussion I know I've made mistakes But my life didn't come with instructions So look at me now I worked hard Put my head down Had to level up Cause your a let down Had to show up Make my mum proud Be a better man Cause your not around And I thank God This who I am now I remember when I saved 2k Shot my first video And look what Ive made now But I still love you Nah nah nah Man I fkn hate you After everything that you put us through Was it worth it Tell me was it fkn worth it I'm hurt that we never spoke Before I took that turn But now it's too late Fuck this letter Just burn it I got so much pain Even though your back in my life now It won't be the same I know I've been praying for this day And I'll take the blame But how can I trust you ever again If you can't explain, please explain Sebz, yeah I know I'm not here anymore But you got to keep your head up I can't do it on my own lil bro It was me and you from the start But now that your gone I swear on your grave I'ma always carry on the brothers name Ignite that flame And burn them gronks that always got something negative to say Cause they don't want to see us up They just want to see us fall They hate it every time we win Thats why its always fuck em all I don't want to do this on my own izzy I don't I hate that I can't even pick up the phone And mum just sits at the front of the house Its like she's waiting for you to come home Why are you making her wait I know that I made a mistake You weren't just my brother You were my best friend And now it's too late Just please bro tell mum to go inside Cause I'm not coming home tonight I can feel her pain when she cry's Wipe all her tears off her eyes And I'll never forget the letter dad wrote us First word I read was son If your reading this I'm so sorry boys But I had to do what I've done I pray one day that god Will bring us back together Me you your brothers and your mum But just for now son I got to leave Cause I really don't like the man I've become Wait Izzy I have to tell you something I know dad hurt you when he left But guess what he came back And he wants to explain that's what he said Look Sebz don't be upset I have no regrets You will always be my brethren And if they ask what happened to Izzy I'll tell 'em he died a fkn legend I got so much pain Even though your back in my life now It won't be the same I know I've been praying for this day And I'll take the blame But how can I trust you ever again If you can't explain, please explain I feel like I'm living in hell That's why I'm always screaming for help I don't want to hear you say that you love me How can you love me When I don't even love myself Can someone please explain Cause I'm just trying to find my way I got so much pain Even though your back in my life now It won't be the same I know I've been praying for this day And I'll take the blame But how can I trust you ever again If you can't explain, please explain