Fire Escapes

I never used to be the one to lose control Paranoid thoughts when I'm on my own I don't wanna be the one to check your phone But lately I I can only sleep when my bags are packed Only feel myself when I overreact Why am I safer when I'm feeling sad It's like I keep on hurting people just to stop them hurting me back I keep on sabotaging myself till I'm all that I have Oh I wish there was something you could say But I've seen how love is made All the beauty and the pain I'm still wearing my bullet proof vest On the inside of my chest Oh I hate that I'm this way But I've seen how love can change That's why I keep on building fire escapes Mmm Mmm That's why I keep on building fire escapes I keep on mis-reading your undertones Always second guessing when I'm alone Keep my feelings hidden till they overflow Almost like I've Forgotten how it feels to be vulnerable Never let myself get too comfortable Never been good at letting go It's like I keep on hurting people just to stop them hurting me back I keep on sabotaging myself till I'm all that I have Oh I wish there was something you could say But I've seen how love is made All the beauty and the pain I'm still wearing my bullet proof vest On the inside of my chest Oh I hate that I'm this way But I've seen how love can change That's why I keep on building fire escapes So I how do I, how do I, get out of this Get out of this, this time So I how do I, how do I, get out of this Get out of this, this time That's why I keep on building fire escapes