So Unsexy

All these little rejections

How they add up quickly

One small sideways look and I feel so un-good

Somewhere along the way I think, I gave you the power to make

Me feel the way I thought only my father could

All these little rejections

How they seem so real to me

One forgotten birthday and I'm all but cooked

How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily

I'm 13 again, am I 13 for good?

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful

So unloved and for someone so fine

I can feel so boring for someone so interesting

So ignorant for someone of sound mind

All these little protections

How they fail to serve me

One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated

All these little defenses

How they fail to comfort me

Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful

So unloved and for someone so fine

I can feel so boring for someone so interesting

So ignorant for someone of sound mind

When will you stop leaving, baby?

When will I stop deserting, baby?

When will I start staying with myself?

All these little projections

How they keep springing from me

I jump my ship as I take it personally

And all those little rejections

How they disappear quickly

The moment I decide not to abandon me

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful

So unloved and for someone so fine

I can feel so boring for someone so interesting

So ignorant for someone of sound mind

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful

So unloved and for someone so fine

I can feel so boring for someone so interesting

So ignorant for someone of sound mind