Fulfillment?

I'll take my shit out of the box, I guess It's too late to feel so lost, I bet All this seems to kind of drag Behind in my redwagon ride Just relax, lighten the load Of all the things that make me want to gag Get rid of you and me and him and her and this and that Kicking and screaming, pulling the things that made me happiest I stay awake Just me and my cherry radio flyer Dreaming of all the ways we'll push higher Hoping that one of these days feels a bit lighter And I hope I'll find Something to live for, for Stop for a second Take a breath, learn a lesson Staring at the walls for something new In my mind, I'm living in the zoo trying to pet the animals Just step back, lighten the load of all the things that I don't have to pack Would it be wrong if I chose to just leave it here? Like my sandals and my sunscreen or my passport and my daydreams Fuck, I don't need my daydreams I stay awake One foot in front of the next on the wire Praying if there's a god, I don't look down now Praying this is the day I get it right now Ooh, right now, hope I'll find Something to live for, for Hope I'll find something to live for, for Before I'm no longer freer Don't look down Don't look down Don't look down Don't look