How Long Has This Been Going On?

I was taught that I ought not to expose my inner senses

Had no plan for a man, I was full of self-defenses

Now I feel that I really should face the consequences

My philosophic search has left me in the learch

I must find why my mind is behaving like a dancer

What's the clue to pursue? For I have to have the answer

I could cry salty tears, where have I been all these years?

"Is it fun or should I run?"

How long has this been this going on?

There were chills up my spine and some thrills I can't define

"Does it show? And who would know?"

How long has this been going on?

Oh, I feel that I could melt, into Heaven I'm hurled

I know how Columbus felt finding another world

"Can I trust how I feel?"

Is this my Achilles?

Look at me, I'm all at sea

"How long has this been going on?"

This is grand, this is great, I'm in such a lovely state

Can one kiss do all of this?