Disconnected

When you get a taste

Of the life you crave

But the bed you made

Starts feeling like a hearse

It's a fitting curse

That the dream you chase

Just leaves you feeling worse

 

The writing gets painful

Cause you built this from the dirt

But the songs you're playing over and over never seem to work

 

When you're falling short

Try to build it up

And let the feeling ride

 

I never held so hard onto the things that keep me grounded

'Cause I've gotten used to running away

You said it wouldn't be easy

And I didn't believe you

Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected

 

With an empty room

And a 15 hour drive

We're living city to city

I'll be gone til' June

While my loved ones pass me by

I always thought I was ready

 

Well I tried

So fucking hard

But letting go is never what it takes

To break the spell of giving in to what you think of me

 

The writing gets painful

When you're asking me stay

But the songs keep playing over and and over

Begging me

 

I never held so hard onto the things that keep me grounded

'Cause I've gotten used to running away

You said it wouldn't be easy

And I didn't believe you

Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected

 

My heart says warm Decembers

But I'm still stuck in May

How can I be there for you when I'm here for me

I never held so hard onto the things that keep me grounded

'Cause I've gotten used to running away

You said it wouldn't be easy

And I didn't believe you

Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected