Temper

You sit and you sink Sorrow swims in the drink You hoped it would drown but it floats In a moat that you made To try to keep the grief away Forgetting pleasure and pain weigh the same When we underestimate the worst of us We bevel the edge of our mind Too dull to keep the grass cut We could never look the snakes in the eye Because I have left permanent shapes in the carpet Outside your door When opportunity knocks you ignore I fear motion don't live here no more Habits form in the smoke as cloudy eyes justify That you don't only get high when you're low Lethargic in the undertow, there's something so dangerous When stubborn minds wish they were dead When we romanticize the things we've lost It's just rubble in rose colored light If you're going to feed the wolf that's at the door You can't hold the years anymore Because I have left permanent shapes in the carpet Outside your door When opportunity knocks you ignore I fear motion don't live here no more There's a consequence to giving up You end up begging for forgiveness from The things you couldn't overcome And it just lets your knees bleed Bury the shame, but now the secret weighs the same You carry a cross of which I'll never know the weight So what could I have said? Heaven didn't cast you out, it just let you down To see the color in the world around is a choice now So chew it up or spit it out The pride inside your mouth Because the hand you used to cast your doubt Spread salt on common ground